Peeling

lately i've been getting glimpses

into what we could be

you & me

us three

and i appreciate the picture

i’m painting in my mind -

morning sex

daily grind

building a future side by side

but if i peel back some layers

to see what lies behind

what would i find?

could you truly love me fully 

for all i am

and all i’m not

build me up when i break down

let me in to all your thoughts

could you be my safe space

the one i lean on when it’s hard

show up real and raw and open

and not just pick me more apart

could you let me hold you too

when things are too much on your own

expose the deepest parts of you

that still remain unknown

the next time i commit to someone 

i want it to be my last

or rather

i want to commit over and over

to the same man

as many times as life asks

and it’s early days now

so i let the jokes slide

but what will happen

once we’re deep inside

would you give me your trust

or would it be something

i constantly have to earn

lay myself out

break myself down

never getting the benefit of the doubt

i can see all the ways

this story could unfold

and i think there’s still

more tale to be told

over time we’ll keep on peeling

see what is revealing

until there’s no more concealing

the feelings

god i hope

i wont need

healing